Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Convicted.

Today I was reading this wonderful, amazing, convicting blog. In case you were wondering, this is the blog: kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com I highly recommend reading it, but at the same time prepare yourself.

A quick summary is that it is about a 21 year old girl who moved to Uganda (i believe after she graduated high school). She thought she would only be there for a short amount of time, but God had other plans for her. She ended up staying and she is now the momma of 14 beautiful adopted girls from Uganda. Her story is just amazing and like I said, convicting.

It really made me wonder...who am I? and what am I doing here?

In John Chapter 3, John the Baptist says that "He must increase and I must decrease." I've noticed lately how much I'm increasing myself and decreasing Him. There's something wrong with this and I need to fix it. But how? Who am I and What am I doing here?? I am a worker for the kingdom, I am a child of the King, I am a follower. I am supposed to be carrying out the kingdom and being obedient. Sometimes I get so caught up in life that I forget what my purpose is. I know this seems to be many people's excuse, but we're missing relentless focus in this world that puts emphasis on busy lives, technology and material things. Oh wait, I'm not of this world, so why do I act like I am? Yes, I have to focus on school, a wedding to plan, friends to hang out with, there's technology surrounding me everywhere I go etc., but how do I bring out the purpose through all these distractions? Why isn't serving and loving broken people one of the things that consumes my time, as it should. I must decrease and He must increase.

You know, I'd really like to quit school, pack up my bags, sell my possessions, move to another country and serve the Lord and His children till I die. Literally. My heart just aches for the orphans, the people hurting, the ones suffering, the ones that need Christ's love. I long to be where they are. Oh, how my heart yearns for that!

Truth is, I can't right now that's not what God has called me to do. God has called me to where I am for a purpose and the best I can do now is be obedient to why He has me here and carry out His kingdom where I am now. You know, I'm sure there are plenty of hurting and broken people where I am right now. Take a look around and I'm sure you can find them where you are too. That is how the whole world is apart from our Father in heaven. I just need to start looking with my spiritual eyes. This week, I want to challenge myself to look to Him for all things and to serve Him with all my heart. I want to challenge myself to love on His children.

So I'll follow Him into the homes of the broken and follow Him into the world and let Him do His will. I'll just be the vessel.


Following Him,
Breesey



1 comment:

  1. Breanne,
    1. Oh how i wish we lived closer
    2. Katie in Uganda- i LOVE her blog too! I wish I had her heart!
    3. I'd love to pack my bags with you and go, right now!
    4. I'm at the same place. Just realization that I am where I am and I can do His work here just the same. I prayed for God to show me the hurting, and he literally brought someone right to me.

    Maybe at some point we will actually have time to sit down and talk about life. Even if thats not until down the road, that will just mean there is more to share :) love you friend

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