Last year, when I was doing
100 60 truths about me I wrote on my Truth V. 2 that I go through "food obsessions". These come around and last a couple months about twice a year.
At the time this is what I said:
15. I go through weird food obsessions. Currently my food obsessions are: s'mores, sweet iced green tea from Sonic, and pumpkin anything. Last spring it was: Andes Mints, Coke Zero, Baked Cheetos, and Blue Bell Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream. They don't just last a couple days but a couple months.
My current food obsessions have changed and I'm glad to say they are healthier! I have been trying to eat healthier because I know that I feel better when I do. I have also been learning the affects food can have on your body and it can be the cause of many different things, good or bad.
Current food obsessions: Green Tea smoothie with pomegranate, sweet potatoes, 75% dark chocolate with espresso beans, quinoa, green juice, hummus on gluten-free bread, and almond butter.
I think it is important to be good stewards of what God has given us. One of those ways is by what we put in our body. I have never really thought about food as being something to let God have control over in my life until I realized that food controlled me. Food became something I turned to when I was emotional, bored, procrastinating, etc. I ate when I didn't need to and I have felt convicted of that. I would go through stages of working out and eating healthy, they would last a month or two, sometimes longer and then I was back to bingeing on food I deprived myself of then beating myself up for it.
I know I need to eat healthy and I started with a few different approaches this time:
1. Eating right not to "look better" or "lose weight" but for my overall health because I can function during the day better and I want to take care of myself now so that my health is not something that gets in the way of being on the mission field.
2. Drinking lots of water and herbal tea. I have almost completely cut out coffee in the morning and that has eliminated the constant heartburn I was having. I've noticed by upping the water I drink during the day I stay full.
3. Attaining my "God Given" weight. Eating when I'm hungry, stopping when I am full. Not overeating and not under eating. I am not being focused on what the world sees as "beauty" or trying to be skinny. I want to eat in a way that I lose weight by eating the right things and the right proportions. If I don't lose weight but this is the weight I can keep by eating healthy and the right portions, then so be it.
4. If I let food have control over me whether it by by becoming obsessed with healthy eating or eating junk food, I know I need to reevaluate my heart and where my relationship with Him is. Am I running to him first?
5. Juicing in the morning. This daily dose of greens begins my day off and I have tons of energy and no crash later. I feel full and vibrant. Who would've thought drinking leaves could be so good? ;)
6. If I want something "unhealthy" I don't deprive myself or beat myself up about eating it. I don't give in to everything that comes across my mind. I will wait three days and if I'm still craving it, I will let myself have it.
7. I cut out gluten and have realized that I function much better without it. This isn't the case for everyone but I think I might be gluten intolerant.
I wrote this for myself so that I can remind myself of my progress. I also wrote if for others to encourage you. I took the HEAL (Healthy Eating & Abundant Living) journey with The Wonderfully Made blog and if food or body image is something you struggle with, I highly encourage you to take it.
This is something the Lord has put on my heart and I would really like to begin ministering to other women that struggle with this. I don't think it is something we want to admit or something we think of that can hinder us, but something we should really pay more attention to. :)
Is this something you struggle with? Have you struggled with it in the past and overcame it?