Just feeling. Feelings of happiness, joy, new life, peace, gladness, excited.
I wasn't numb to emotions, bitter, indifferent or angry. Not to sound dramatic, but this is very much the only things I've been feeling for what seems like a long time. As much as I tried to grasp onto the Lord, I have failed so miserably. I have given into the easy things like choosing pain and sorrow rather than clinging to His joy and comfort. I was mad because I felt like I deserved something from the Lord, something telling me He still wanted me. He tells me everyday but I wasn't listening.
He finally got through to me in my dreams last night.
I woke up with this saying on my heart:
There is POWER in the name of Jesus.
My heart was singing this as I woke from the dream I believe the Lord gave me last night. In my dream I was fighting obstacle after obstacle. I was tired, exhausted, and weak. In my dream I began declaring the name of Jesus over those obstacles and I watched as one by one, they were disappearing right before my eyes. The Lord was going before me and defeating them as I said "JESUS" over each obstacle that was before me in my life.
Today I feel like I've been given a new breath of life. Today we celebrate the Risen Lord. I believe this is no coincidence that the Lord revealed himself to me on this day. I feel like I'm entering into a new season that is going to be full of overcoming with the Lord going before me and a season full of life in the name of Jesus.
I will declare His name and see the power of His name work in my life and through others.
But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you. Romans 8:11
Also, super thankful for a husband that has been so patient and helpful throughout this whole process who leads our little family through the word of God.
Y'all, I'm back! I feel like "me" again. Yay!